DREAM​-​WAKE

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WAKE: 13-24

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released April 27, 2019

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Track Name: RGB
the second that I heard you love
I saw all kinds of colors
red and blue and green
I was in a dream
she was calling out the autumn
and I know that I had to see what it was all about

our feet were hanging off that stage and she chronicled it well
but she forgot all about the part when I fell
not literally but metaphysically
oh past and present tense
oh I do not want this to ever end

so hold me like you love me
like you'll always want me
lets jump
lets jump

the second that I heard you love you conquered all my fears
you realigned my innocence and accessed all my tears
you showed me a world id never known
so please don't you go

just hold me like you love me
like you'll always want me
lets jump up
lets jump up

lets jump into a life together
lets run into the sun forever
lets know all that is unknown
cus when they get too bright they burn out
baby our light could burn dark out
when they get too bright they burn out
our light could burn dark out
Track Name: Memories
Do you remember when
You were a child
Everything
was perfect then
But we grew up
We slipped away
Stopped holding on
To memories
Of brighter days
Of different ways
To keep ourselves
Entertained
I could read a book
Yea I could focus then
Remember when
You were my friend

Every time I think of you it hurts so bad I cry
Why did we give up

Do you remember when
I met you where
I'd be left
Standing there
All alone
Begging please
Say you'll never
Ever leave
But I got lost
So full of shame
You had my heart
you ran away
I don"t blame you
These memories
They're better than
Never having
None of them

Still every time I think of you it hurts so bad I cry
Why did we give up

I don't understand
Why you had to go
But it was so
Nice to know ya
Please don't believe
The mean things I said
Cus' I never meant
None of them
I was in a rage
It was out of pain
I always thought
we'd get engaged
But everything
has been destroyed
From trying to
fill that void
Please forgive me
cus What is love
If it don't hurt sometimes
We'll never find
Another yours and mine again

Why did we give up
Track Name: Unguarded Heart
There is nothing here
This means nothing to me
not a single memory
I’m so confused
Its been too long since
I have felt a thing
I’ve been living in misery
Are you kidding me

Please, Please don’t tell me that
You couldnt be serious
My trust and My confidence
will forever be deceiving me
you really sure that you really wanna say that
still not too late for you to take it back
She should be trying to take it back
She’s not trying to take it back
Please take it back

is there anything
i can say to you
to make you more attracted to
me again
I don't think so
did we give up on
what we never had
were we ever in love
no not at all

Do you really need to tell me that
why twist the knife that's in my back
I feel betrayed so why attack
all our memories are feeding back
ive never been so desperate for affection
im begging and pleading for meaningless connection but
never sunk so low its sad
you're the only one I had
I feel so bad

I’m so proud of you
you are starting to
finally accept its over
huh what huh
You can finally
get a chance to be like me
hysterical happy
you're making me sick
youre my family
i will always be your friend
know how you much were loved
please don't talk like that
i wish you the best
if you come to my house
i will have to take action
no

Please Please don’t tell me that
i won’t believe none of it
what did i ever do to you
to make yourself so scared of me
went one time knocking at your door
cut clean through me with your sword
was only trying to get you back
but I walked into a trap
don’t want you back

please please don’t tell me that
youre not alone and its an act
he’s whining you, dining you
he’s whispering, kissing you
It’s everything that you ever could’ve wanted
without the foundation that we started from
at least its mine thats been torn apart
i know you couldnt have handled the hurt
Unguarded Heart
Track Name: Tears
i’m looking for tears in your eyes
but i cant find them
i never thought you could be so cold
can you comprehend the pain of this heartbreaking
she says one day she will know
but til then

she’s happy
she don’t need me anymore
she don’t want to be my friend
she used to pray for it to end
its been a long time
since she's felt a thing
she was just hanging on
til she was strong enough to say

i don’t want nothing to do
i don’t want nothing to do with you

i’ve never been so let down
should've known she was all about letting go
i never heard such a sound
no one better than her and no one more bitter than me
now as i fall to the ground and cry to Jesus
for her to come back around
and forgive the things she can’t forgive

I’m sorry
i never wanted nothing more
i only wanna be your friend
and i know that its worth fighting for
its been a long time
but i know that i can change
have a little faith in me girl
i believe our love could be the same

but she dont want nothing to do
she dont want nothing to do with you
Track Name: Dream
close your eyes
you're not alone
I'm the still small voice in your soul
don't you know
you are loved
somewhere
come on home
Track Name: Sweet Return
a flower for you
dreaming of your sweet return
you are so beautiful
my heart won’t quit this burn
I’ve been begging you
to turn yourself around
and walk back up to me
but theres another lover now
and though it hurts
though it doesn’t mean a thing
every sword I’ve faced to say this
the sharper the sting
its not denial
its not an ordinary pain
it feels like fate is sealing up
it feels like the end
of the world

One day love will wash our sins away
I would die just to make you happy

love will never fade
i’ll be dreaming of the day
you make your sweet return

a flower for you
your heart is like a childs
so delicate
its flowing colors wild
so innocent
good is all she knows
she’s a fountain of joy
im a thorn and she’s the rose
though it hurts
though it feels like death
these tears that crash below me
echo of the nothing left
as the ground
splits in two
lord i wait for you

One day love will wash our sins away
I would die just to make you happy

love will never fade
i’ll be dreaming of the day
you make your sweet return

Holding on is so hard to do
i know we can if we choose
to not make excuses
holding on is so hard to do
i know we can make it through
if we choose to tell the truth

if loves like the sand through our hands on the shore
we should just get some more

Awaiting your sweet return
Track Name: Longsuffering
my heart is breaking over and over again
maybe one day you will love me again
til then

i’m biting my tongue
choking back tears
arrow in back like boromir
scars in my soul
from seeds that i sew
i’ll never know
the pain that you hold in your heart
i start to understand

mother tries
to do her best
regrets ever leaving the past
but God
he is good
he makes a way
stop looking for answers
and start asking questions
like why are these people all chasing their feelings
is something reeling their hearts into hell

my heart is breaking over and over again
maybe one day you will love me again

til then
so many tears
when i hear your name
crippling
its sickening

you had it so rough
theres no one tougher than
you
baby, love is long-suffering
a stupid wish
for cupids trick
baby, love in the arms
of a fallen angel
Track Name: Bait
she shut the shades to the window of her soul
and I'm wondering what happened
she cut me out of her movie
she's been sleeping with a day dream

throw it all away for a feeling
funny how its tugging at your heart then disappearing

im begging you don't take the bait
it looks so good but it tempts your fate
the fog that's in your eye was once in mine
im begging you cus we'll regret
the way we left the day we met behind
like dreams and memories
rewind my angel

I love you
don't fight it
I know that
you loved me too
oh no
don't you bite it
I know that you want to

she shuts the shades to the moonlight of my life
and im singing in the darkness
I know that you don't believe me but try
every single evil in me died for you

you know that I only want to love you
more than anyone has ever dared to try

im begging you don't take the bait
it looks so good but it tempts your fate
the fog that's in your eye was once in mine
im begging you cus we'll regret
the way we left the day we met behind
like dreams and memories
rewind my angel

I love you
don't fight it
I know that
you loved me too
oh no
don't you bite it
I know that you want to
Track Name: Remember
we were walking through the forest
we were dreaming by the water
making memories
melodies
please remember me
hand in hand and heart in heart
the bond was inseperable
the future was inevitable
i'll never forget her
i will never regret her
i'll take only the best
and leave all the rest behind

nobody else but you
theres still nobody else but you
theres still nobody else but you
theres still nobody else but you

look deep into the eyes of your lover
tell me if you ever discover another
melody thats worth marrying
a burden worth carrying
a moment worth watching our memories shattering
i'll never forget her
i will never resent her
though i'm broken and bruised
and feel like i'm used
i'm alive

nobody else but you
there''s still nobody else but you
why's there nobody else but you
how's there nobody else but you
Track Name: Keiko
they want to hide the other side of it
they feel the need to lie
to make you feel better
do you feel better

no i don’t i want but i won’t i want to shake my bed
i said our love is dead just let this be the end
i don’t you want but you won’t
i can only shake my head
you said our love is dead just let this be the end
oh no

Keiko

I want to try to make it right with you
I feel the need to try
To make you feel better
Do you feel better

no i don’t i want but i won’t i want to shake my bed
i said our love is dead just let this be the end
i don’t you want but you won’t
i can only shake my head
you said our love is dead just let this be the end
oh no

Keiko
Track Name: Forgive
i understand if you cannot forgive me
i cry over my broken heart
but you know real pain

go, darling
ill be waiting here
praying for forgiveness
trying to see it clear

you’re free as a bird now
running towards the light
and out of these arms
that love her

i lost myself
thats not who i am
if i ever caused you pain
and it stained our past
I’m so sorry

go, darling
ill be waiting here
praying for forgiveness
trying to see it clear

you’re free as a bird now
running towards the light
and out of these arms
that love her
i’ll always love her
Track Name: Dream-Wake
wake up
from this dream
its so strange its the same scene
with a new cast of characters
the past is hanging on a thread
your love for me is dead
resuscitate
cus its getting so late
and I’m tired
I’m so tired
and this fire
in my chest
from all this unrest
is killing me
Lord, deliver me from my heart

Wake up
why trade this dream
shattering these red blue and green memories
for a deep bruised reality
you’ve got a friend in me
why can’t you see

how much i need you

love is faithful and fair
hear my weary heart
if you want it its yours
don’t you pick it apart

Dream-Wake

and we’re talking in melody
love leaves no casualty
the second that i heard you love
i was in a fantasy
i saw all kinds of colors
red and blue and green and i was in a dream
i’d sacrifice them all for you
and you’re taking a walk under a sea of stormy skies
where you bargain with your mind
dreaming while i cry

love is faithful and fair
hear my weary heart
if you want it its yours
don’t you pick it apart

Dream-Wake
Track Name: Be Together
dwell on the good times that tear me apart
they’re painted in rage your world is a stage
where you cry and you plead and you feel the need
to steal their sympathy

Well no one is looking and
no one is listening
nearly as hard as i did
my family is bitter
but they’re better than that
you snuck in and crawled out of their womb

dont you forget
who was there for you
if you come running back
i could never break your heart
i will forgive you and i will forget
what you tore apart
and what I was left to piece together
we should be together

well you know I’m a sinner
the singer
of this song
is not a saint
I’m sorry for being a part of your life
and for staining your melody waves

one day when youre older and
emotion runs colder
should the ocean swallow you whole
and youre splashing in the sadness
thrashing in the madness
feel free to cry for my soul

dont you forget
who was there for you
if you come running back
i could never break your heart
i will forgive you and i will forget
what you tore apart
and what I was left to piece together
we should be together

dont know why i defend you
i could never condemn you
cus you’ve got the dirt and you’ve got a lot of it
thats between me and you and God
maybe this is him teaching us love
think of my face when you think of that feeling
let leaving fill you with pain
to spark the strength to endure
know your future is for
the ones that need you

dont you forget
who was there for you
if you come running back
i could never break your heart
i will forgive you and i will forget
what you tore apart
and what I was left to piece together
we should be together
Track Name: Flutter
I dont wana know
Why we gotta go
Away
from each other
Maybe
God has a better plan
Has a better man for you
Baby

Dont say a word
Dont speak a lie
Dont harden your heart
The small voice inside
Whispers the truth
Tells you what to do
You can decide
If it lives or it dies

Your heart is out of my hands
You can't force
what it is that true love demands
I still believe that
we were made for each other
A sparrow and a cardinal
Singing together
The sorrow of no more tomorrows

Flutter
Flutter your heart

If you gotta go
You probably should know
That you're always with me
Honey
I'll never let it go
The memory is so
Much brighter than the

End of the road
The end of the song
In love for so long
Our love was so strong
I'm dying to know
If you think about me
and my family
I thought we were so happy

Your heart is out of my hands
You can't force
what it is that true love demands
I still believe
we were made for each other
A sparrow and a cardinal
Singing together
The sorrow of no more tomorrows

Flutter
Flutter your heart
Track Name: Heartstrings
It's just so easy
To play the game
If I act on this violence
I feel the shame 
This is the monster
That tears me apart 
Bet I could take him
Like he took your

Heartstrings
I've done wrong things 
I wont feed hate
Though I'm dead weight
As your dream wake
Makes the waves break
As your ship sets sail

So on to the next one 
They say love comes around
When you least expect it 
Well I guess that's right now 
But I am so broken
Cus' my whispering wounds
They Keep repeating
That it's still too soon for

Heartstrings
I've done wrong things 
I wont feed hate
Though I'm dead weight
As your dream wake
Makes the waves break
As your ship sets sail

Don’t say you loved me 
And wish me the best 
you just killed me forever 
As you net me with a threat 
It is delusion 
It is defeat
To ruthlessly sever
The love for you from me

Heartstrings 
I've done wrong things 
I wont feed hate
Though I’m dead weight
As your dream wake
Makes the waves break
As your ship sets sail
Track Name: Earth
Sky is so blue
The grass is so green
The sun shines brightly upon me
Im walking the dog
Shes sniffing the piss
My mom mom
Is in an ambulance

Know that theres another world
None of us will have to stay
Dont believe the things they say
To be afraid of
If you ever slide away
Fall down on your knees and pray
Kiss the dirt because its what you're made of

He's breathing life into the lungs
We're tearing lives down with our tongues
And our fists the gifts that cant exist
without Jesus
We are so complex
We are so in debt
I'm not shit
Without a savior

Down into the lake we go
Eternally alone
Falling into flame
Endless summer
If you really don't believe
Take a look at what you need
Wonder if you'd ever tell your mother

The girl I love found another one
She broke my heart like it was fun
She says restraining order
So I said okie dokie
I never wanted any of this from you
I only wanted one last kiss from you
I would only ever tell you how much
I truly miss you

Know that it's so hard to stop
Thinking of all that we lost
Wondering if the pain was worth the cost
Though you're living miles away
And You've succesfuly silenced me
The melodies of memories linger

Lord, kill the darkness in my heart
It tears relationships apart
I wonder why I'm not in the mud
It's a testament to your love
You're always pull me through
As my enemies are foaming to
Take me out for the stuff I do
I love you so much

Don't you ever choose to hate
Don't you ever throw away
The innocence of youth is like an anchor
To keep you faithful in the way to go
Reflect the tantrums that you used to throw
To keep you from acting out of anger

Nothing left to say I'm moving on
This world one day will all be gone
The words that left my lips
They sunk our friendship
Nothing I can say to change your heart
Nothing I can say to make you love me again
Sorry for the things I said
It hurts to see the end

If you find it in your heart
To give the one you loved another start
I'll come running back like a dog
But if you wana make yourself believe
That all thats left there is what made us leave
I wish you heaven
Track Name: I Wonder
the source of my strength
you see me through my heartbreak
dont you worry about me
ill be fine
flying through the sky

i wonder will they ever need your love like i do

you wash my hands of the shame
the pain falls off
blessed beyond
anything i deserved
nothing heres forever
i never would forget her

i wonder will they ever need your love like i do

i choose to dream of sweet return
one day the flame will burn again
evaporating all the tears we cried
the lies that grow inside cant hide no more
here comes the redeemer of every decision
every collision of all collusion
heap the coals upon the heads of the living dead
new bodies for the broken
the serpent is smoking in the fire

i wonder will they ever need your love like i do